I've always been a really careful mom, especially because I'm new to this role and I don't pretend to know everything there is to know about motherhood. I never took chances. I followed rules by the book and every bit of doctor's instructions in terms of feeding, bathing and all other activities involving the baby.
Lucas has been receptive to anything. He would eat pretty much anything we give him. And because of that, I may have taken the rules for granted a bit. Yesterday, I made the biggest mistake of giving him "binignit"(a.k.a. ginataan or sweet vegetable stew) which he really liked, by the way. I hesitated because it had coconut milk on it. But since he liked it, I went ahead and gave him some. And I gave him more, and more at every meal.
Today, he couldn't stop throwing up. Of course, I stopped giving him "binignit" but now, whatever he eats he lets them all out. He is still active and he seems ok. He doesn't look like he's in any pain. He finishes his food, but then he throws up afterwards.
I blame myself for all this. I can't help but ask--how could I be so careless and stupid? This is my baby I'm talking about! And even if he was some other baby, I still should not have given him anything that I wasn't sure was harmless. Even many adults don't take coconut milk very well, how much more babies?!
He is resting right now--he's a little warm but sleeping soundly. We're keeping a close eye on him and hoping he's going to be ok when he wakes up.
As for me, I swear to stick by the rules from now on. I'll be a psycho-mom if I have to, but I'm never, ever taking chances again!
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Photo: Taken this afternoon--Lucas playing with his cousin, Nathan. Lucas has been like that today--active and smiling, until after he eats.
