Mommy's Promise

Dearest Lucas,

I am so sorry, Anak, if I am always away.  It breaks my heart to see you wave goodbye and throw flying kisses at me every morning when I leave for work. It breaks my heart even more when I have to travel and leave you for days. I feel so much guilt and sadness because I never would have wanted to leave you.  But at this time, quitting my job and taking care of you myself does not seem to be a good choice either.

You see, my boy, God blessed mommy and daddy with careers--great careers that we are able to have roofs over our heads, food on the table, cars to help us get around, an opportunity to live in such a beautiful town, and most of all a means to get a wonderful Nana to help take care of you.  We should be grateful for all these, and most of all we should be grateful that we are all healthy and we are together.  There are a lot of families out there who do not see each other for months or even years.  I can't imagine how it must be.  I already struggle to be away from you for a couple of days.  I don't think I can handle us being apart.

But here's one thing I can promise you, my boy--nothing will ever be as important to mommy than you!  Wherever I am and whatever I'm doing, I will run to your side when you need me.  You may have to give me some time, but I will be there.  Your dad and I will take turns watching you, playing with you, teaching you lessons, reading to you, praying with you and putting you to bed.  We will have a balanced life and you will always have at least one of us on your side.  Please be patient with us, my boy and always be fond of us as we are so fond of you.

I promise to love you always, and I mean ALWAYS!  I'm sure your daddy loves you too--more than anything in his world, more than me.  Please remember that, my son.

Hugs and kisses,
Mama